I Would like to say a few things, Im in a state of regret atm...i have done STUPID things...cast aside what was there to help me...and did anything i could to become a outcast...so i could die alone...I was talking to a man on saturday night...who slapped me around mentally...and it was this outside opinion that made me change...i know ive said i would alot...but this time i actually will...because i set myself up that night...that if i didnt change my ways...i set a plan in motion that i would lose everything, literally...and i have supervisors to make sure i do change and implent this plan...i need to apologise to all the good people that tryed to help me...i dont expect any of you to forgive me, but accept at least...a apologie from the bottom of the heard of a man...who had more than he would care to admit...i love all you guys dearly and would hate to ruin everything especially after all this time...i may of already ruined it...but i throw myself at your mercy

Adam